Friday, November 13, 2009

ups & downs

Rough day today. Sprout was particularly fussy (as he was yesterday during the day), and I just felt really alone. Noodle and Spud were really good, which was nice, but as I tried to slog through some of the chores I had to do, all I really wanted was to have a friend come over and chat. I had a real need for some commiseration today, but it just didn't happen. I hate feeling lonely. I think one of the harder things for me about being a wife and a mother is dealing with the down moods. When what I most need is just some quiet time to think, read, pray, etc., I just have to keep my "game face" on and try to muddle through until my mood clears a bit. (And try not to bite anybody's head off.) I've opened up a dialogue with Noodle & Spud about how sometimes I just need a break, and they are remarkably good at giving me some time & space. Unfortunately, babies don't have that skill.

Such is life.

9 comments:

Katie said...

Babies can be such a challenge at times.

David said...

Well, i'm certainly grateful you have a "game face". Too many children have to deal with a mom who vents at a level and frequency that is just damaging.

The new header is GREAT!

3in3mom said...

You are awesome! I so admire all you do--game face or not I so understand. Thank goodness for the internet and being able to find someone with commiserate with even if it is the blogosphere.

Ps I love the pic you chose.

andrea said...

bummer you had a bad day. I totally know how you feel, though. Your new header is SO cute! Love it!

R and R said...

Love the family picture! Sorry for the bad day--too bad we don't live closer. I have several days that I wish I could lean on one of my sisters. I love you.

mindy said...

Thanks for the hugs and commiseration. :o) I am getting better at keeping things in perspective (believing that just because I have a hard day, it DOESN'T mean my life sucks in every way), but some days it just feels like NOW is the only reality.

And I'm glad you all like the new banner. I will confess to being ridiculously excited about it on Saturday as I was making it. I think it captures the essence of our family well. Which tells you something...

I wish we lived closer, too, Rebecca. And at this time of year, I'm wishing it was me closer to your toasty locale. Stinky winter.

babygonzo said...

I'm sorry you had a rough day, but I too LOVE the new banner.... and for what its worth, tell that cute little baby of yours to gear up for some Auntie Jenn Time so mommy can get a break :-)

Debra said...

This is one of the things I hear that makes me wish sometimes that I could be home during the day. I think about my mom and how her friends would come over during the day just to chat for a little while. Ease the loneliness a bit. You have a big job that makes it hard to take breaks. I can see why you'd feel this way.

We should setup skype or video conference for the times one of us is really desperate. I can go down to the vending machine and get a bag of crappy cookies and some overpriced milk while you enjoy your hot, homemade version and we can take a break.
: )

mindy said...

Debra, I have wished that same thing! Too bad life doesn't always ask us what we want, huh? ;o) I'm glad to have you as a friend and grateful that we can squeeze time in when we do. Mmmmmm, cookies!

Jenn, thanks! Sure love you!